1. |
Oh Was I
05:01
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It all became a solitary force
when all was said and done
I messed it up
yah I found the coldest ending
you said you had enough
Oh was I
a maiden journey
lost in time
Oh was I
I wandered till it hurt to cry
there’s so much on the table left unsaid
who’s right who’s wrong
and there it is
a jar of pennies, all the keepers
you said I was the one
Oh was I
a maiden journey
lost in time
Oh was I
I wandered till it hurt to cry
our closet’s full with faces we put on
I’ll try, you’ll try
this ride’s been long
the destination’s much too far
when love is not enough
Oh was I
a maiden journey
lost in time
Oh was I
I wandered till it hurt to cry
I wandered till it hurt to cry
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2. |
April Moon
03:22
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you know I will reach you there
when you call my name
and I fall but I’m unprepared
this love’s in vein
the sea rolls in before me
lights up the full moon air
she sees me sad and lonely
from the mark of love I bear
the rain is unmerciful
without you here
if I sing will my heart stay full
without you here
the sea rolls in before me
lights up the full moon air
she sees me sad and lonely
from the mark of love I bear
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3. |
Waking Up
03:07
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I’m waking up
I’m waking up
I’m waking up
I’m waking up
my love
I’ve been looking for you
through wind and sky
I cannot see
and now I’m falling
my love
do you hear me
do you see the wind in your soul
where light falls hard
don’t let go
don’t let go
my love
I can see you
let me touch you
where the light falls hard
and this light falls hard
I’m waking up
I’m waking up
I’m waking up
I’m waking up
on the way I found myself again
everyday I thought I’d see you
every day I chose myself again
and I haven’t lost you yet
I haven’t lost you yet
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4. |
No Mistake
02:52
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hold me in your darkness
I’ll breathe your golden air
a warning, I’m hard
to hold to love to wait for
but I can stay awake
high above the waves
when you hold me in your heart
there’s no mistake
a thousand suns were rising
to flowers in your hair
there’s something in me dying
let go let love you’re there
and I can stay awake
high above the waves
when you hold me in your arms
there’s no mistake
it took me years to find you
your footprints kept me close
the loneliness was blinding
it’s not an easy road
now I can stay awake
high above the waves
when you hold me in your heart
there’s no mistake
there’s no mistake
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5. |
Evidence of Love
01:48
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seventy-five reasons you won’t speak to me
it’s a hate filled love, oh oh
I’ve been holding this inside of me
‘til your heart wakes up, oh oh
I’ll show you evidence, evidence of love
I’ll show you evidence, evidence of love
I’ll show you evidence, evidence of love
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6. |
I Was There
02:31
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I was there
a screaming mess of 12 years old begging
you to hear me
my head one force away from cracking
the drywall just sound
no blood
there was no forgiving
and there was no end to the fight
darknesslikelightning
tracked us through generations
pitting us on the front line
reflecting ancient scripts
I remember selective disappointments
the time I danced and sang then announced
I would be a star someday
Oh
was the best you could do
your mustard-colored tattered sweater limping hanging
lifelessly off your boney shoulders
holes and threads
you wore it every day without fail
a treasure from your years
of lost dreams
my bold attempt to break the chain
and the best I could do back then
was to travel 3000 miles away and back
then later whiskey’s shadow
reeking defiance and desperation
and that went on for years
and I believed I could be saved
from you
I wrote pages on those walls
and I remember all of it
I went back there
the house that heard every scream
I don’t know what I was expecting
the place that still owned my body
the tree in the front yard
tulips that were mowed over
every spring
now when each winter comes around
I do think of you
I am honey and you are the teacup
and we sit
and there is that closeness again
I expected too much from you
I balanced the void with
basement escapes
buried under sheets with my dolls
or staring blankly into the dark
forcing the light back through
I see you
I see the water welling
betraying your stoic independence
the space between us
never found
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7. |
Turn The Light On
01:52
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Oh turn the light on
turn the light on brother
turn the light on now
Oh turn the light on
turn the light on sister
turn the light on now
how we gonna make it mother
how we gonna make it through
how we gonna make it mother
how we gonna make it through
Oh turn the light on
turn the light on brother
turn the light on now
Oh turn the light on
turn the light on sister
turn the light on now
how we gonna make it mother
how we gonna make it through
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8. |
Make This Right
05:06
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what would make this right
is it too much for a rewrite
all this wasted time
you’ve grown up
like fire
one more time
is me dying
this song
is me trying
this heart is so alive
but we’ll never know
we’ll never know
so where do I run now
cause I don’t do slow
what if I’m too much for you
I don’t wanna know
when the high fades
and you let go again
I don’t wanna know
I don’t wanna know
you’re always in the right
that’s not love
it’s not kind
there’s judgement in your eyes
I’m not mad, I’m just tired –
one more time
is me dying
this song
is me trying
my heart is so alive
but you’ll never know
you’ll never know
hold me closer, I need a way back again
if this is over, I need a way out
so where do I run now
cause I don’t do slow
what if I’m too much for you
I don’t wanna know
when the high fades
and you let go again
I don’t wanna know
I don’t wanna know
so where do I run now
cause I don’t do slow
what if I’m too much for you
I don’t wanna know
when the high fades
and you let go again
I don’t wanna know
I don’t wanna know
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9. |
The Way
05:05
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you’re like an ocean in the sand, so brave
I watch you move into your dance, a prayer
I follow you deep in the ground
maybe it’s a way
be your vessel be your ground
maybe it’s a way
you’re like an ocean in the sand
I watch you move into your dance
I follow you deep in the ground
maybe it’s a way we’re found
be your vessel be your ground
maybe it’s a way out
the shooting stars are all I see
they fly elusive over me
I cannot speak when you’re around
maybe I’m afraid I’ll drown
be the one who hears a sound
maybe it’s a way out
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10. |
Take Me Home
03:25
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oh lord when you see me take me home
lost from the pleasures I have known
don’t you make me wait so long
oh lord take me home
oh lord take me home
now John’s my father
keep him safe
his love was selfless
his eyes had faith
hold him strong in your embrace
oh lord keep him safe
oh lord keep him safe
oh lord when you see me take me home
I lost my child in the Irish fold
and Dunmore boys light up like gold
oh lord bring her home
oh lord bring her home
my prayers are silent
my heart is worn
this earth won’t promise
the love I hope for
don’t you make me wait so long
oh my heart is worn
oh my heart is worn
oh lord when you see me take me home
lost from the pleasures I have known
don’t you make me wait so long
oh lord take me home
oh lord take me home
oh lord take me home
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Diane Barbarash Vancouver, British Columbia
Thank you to the ones who inspire me daily to be true to myself when I write... Neil Young, Joni Mitchell, Steve Earle, Sigur Ros, Kathleen Edwards, Kacey Musgraves, Julie Miller, Rhianna, Future, Bon Iver, Yellawolf, Lights and to songwriters everywhere ... more
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